Everything feels like I’m floating on a cloud ready to plummet down. It feels so great but so bad at the same time. Words can explain the way I’m feeling.
I stayed at his house the first time yesterday. I was so nervous what was going to happen. Would i be able to make conversation? Would his little brother like me? Would it be awkward? The plan was for him to walk and pick me up and then go back to yours however the weather had different plans. He ended up texting me that his step mum Emily was going to pick me up instead.
Fast forward to the moment. He opened the door to the car where i got in and introduced myself as Emily to Emily. Pretty ironic i know. I met Oliver who is literally the cutest. They had some family friends at his house so i had to find the dad and shake his hand. I did after setting myself for 10 minutes. We babysat Oliver and this girl called Matilda. After playing for a while we watched finding demo and Declan and i layer on each other.
The electricity between us is crazy it feels like literal sparks every time we touch. Everything has happened so fast but it just feels so right like its going slow. We ended up sleeping together okay well not really. After dong whatever for a couple of hours we both woke up at 4:30am and lets just say we didn’t get back to sleep until 7 where well slept for half an hour. Declan and i had a shower in the morning where we kissed which was so nice and we made our way to school. Everything felt so natural like it was meant to be. At no point did i feel awkward or uncomfortable which made everything so much better. Its like we have known each other forever yet I’m still learning so much about who he is. I thought i had work after school but realised i didn’t so Declan,Charlie,Rohan,logan,Kiyara and i went to the park.
I kept on wanting to leave that now i think about it was probably the wrong thing. We went up into the slide like little kids and kissed. It felt so amazing, we had been waiting the whole day to kiss and when we did it felt better than i could of ever imagined. After that we all walked to 7/11 and Declan and i decided to go the park where we couldn’t stop kissing.
Its so strange because i thought since forever i was never able to do any of this. Since a few months ago i couldn’t even hold someones hand without feeling uncomfortable. Everything just works so well with us physically and emotionally. Our bodies connect so well though emotionally its even better. We just get each others emotions and have the same visions in life. I genuinely can’t see anything that could pull us apart.
Our parents met for the first time and it went even better than imagined. We just hugged each other and embraced each other warm bodies. I felt overjoyed of every emotion. It was so hard leaving him however it makes seeing him the next day even better. I’m so grateful I’ve been able to share this experience with someone i love so much.